My dear lovely long term friend and companion on our mutual path, you are wonderful. Let me tell you a couple of things you're wonderful at - writing, confession and hope. Ethlie, if Rita ever left me I would not bother to hope. I would simply wall off that emotional component and pretend I don't need it anymore. You are honest with yourself as well as the world. You are still willing to seek. And if you don't seek you will never find. But perhaps clean shaven and sober for a long damn time and not such a heart-throb may be a better place to start.
Feel better soon!
My dear lovely long term friend and companion on our mutual path, you are wonderful. Let me tell you a couple of things you're wonderful at - writing, confession and hope. Ethlie, if Rita ever left me I would not bother to hope. I would simply wall off that emotional component and pretend I don't need it anymore. You are honest with yourself as well as the world. You are still willing to seek. And if you don't seek you will never find. But perhaps clean shaven and sober for a long damn time and not such a heart-throb may be a better place to start.